I think, if I were honest with myself, I’d have to admit that this blogging business has been one giant procrastination endeavor.
Although I began this blog to challenge myself both sartorially and financially, I think I’ve kept it up as long as I have because subconsciously, it’s allowed me to not write my novel.
Gods, writing that down makes me sound so pretentious! “Work on my piece”? “Revise my work in progress”? Is there some sort of cheeky euphemism I can use to say it so that it doesn’t sound like I’m wearing a black turtleneck and smoking Camel Lights and chugging espressos and bemoaning the state of the Oxford comma while frantically trying to get an agent to even bother with my manuscript?
But yeah, what with work starting up in September and all the drama that entails, I had very little time free to dedicate to it and writing and this blog. I justified it by saying “As long as I’m writing, that’s good enough.” After all, it’s more than I’ve ever done in my adult life, and all the advice from established writers out there all seem to focus on this “Just write!” business.
But writing for this blog is brain candy. It’s fluff. It’s off-the-cuff stuff that I can toss out in mere minutes. Oh, don’t get me wrong – I’m not denigrating this platform, nor am I then inadvertently denigrating you, my fabulous readers. No, I’m saying that working on my novel is work and blogging is play and ne’er the twain shall meet.
I simply can’t reconcile doing both. Not in regards to time suck. Not in regards to effort. Not in regards to wordsmithing. I can’t be in both modes at once; I just have two different voices for each. And since my novel is set in Renaissance Italy, I can’t even kill two birds with one stone and go back and forth between the two without dreading one or the other.
But I love and appreciate the friends I’ve made by blogging and I don’t want to say goodbye. I also plan on getting dressed every morning for work and all that outfit creating certainly can’t go to waste.
I propose this, then: I shall continue documenting my outfits in true style blog OOTD fashion during the work week, but I’m going to reserve the weekends for more novel-writing time.
So no more WITs and no more 5 Things features for a while. At least until I a) tire of my novel, b) actually get my novel published, or c) need to rant/vent/throw myself a pity party and need an audience.
I hope this decision doesn’t dismay too many of you. You really ought to be enjoying nature/life/family/that book on your TBR list/Doctor Who episodes anyway instead of reading my randomosity on the weekends.
Adieu pour maintenant!